Reaching for My Dreams Again

Today I am grateful for my friends and family pushing me towards my dreams. Eventhough I am sometimes unwilling.

My next comedy routine will be Tuesday October 16th. I will have 6 minutes to make people laugh. I think I can do it. Below is some information if anyone is interested in joining me. You can go for free if you make a reservation. Hope to see you all.

Finally, I am grateful for glogging again. I have missed it and will get back into it. I need someplace to write down my comedy ideas.

http://www.crackerscomedy.com/indexa.html

http://www.crackerscomedy.com/openmic.html

http://www.crackerscomedy.com/open_mic_coupon_print.html

Grandma

Today I am grateful for Grandma. She passed on this morning and while sad, she has brought so much happiness in my life that I wanted to list what I was grateful for.

I am grateful for her craftiness. She made everything from dolls, to quilts and I am glad to have so many of her items in my home.

I am grateful for her playfulness. I played so many games with Grandma like Old Maid or Go Fish and those are some of the happiest memories I have.

I am grateful for her iron will. This was the toughest old bird you would ever want to meet. She mowed her own yard (2 acres) until she was 92. She did not need Air Conditioning, Central Heat, or any modern conveniences.

I am grateful that she met Sarah. Although Sarah will not remember, I have pictures and I will remember.

I am grateful for her "garden". Nearly 1 acre of corn, squash, tomatoes, and all sorts of vegetables that she grew every year.

I am grateful for her being my Grandma. I will always love her and never forget her.

Football

Today I am grateful for football. While some may not be into the sport, it has brought joy into my life in many ways. It makes me feel like I am a part of something bigger than myself when rooting for my favorite team (Colts).

Football has also kept me in touch with many friends from old jobs and start friendships at my current job. I play fantasy football, where you pick football players and they get points for the things that they do. After the week is over, if your football players have more points than the person you are playing against, you win.

It's also makes the football games more interesting in the same way that gambling does. Except no broken legs when you don't pay Vinny.

This year Nicole has joined me in fantasy football. I am proud of her for trying something new. Also we get to do something together that is not baby related and hopefully that will bring us even closer together.

But not too close as if we get much closer together, we will merge into one super-human couple able to give people cavities with our sweetness.

Safe Journeys

And no, I don't mean Steve Perry with a seat belt.

Today I am grateful for old friends coming home from a wonderful, exciting journey and planning a few journeys of my own.

I am grateful for smiles, farts, and spit-ups. When Nicole does these things, it is sooo cute. (Just Kidding)

I am grateful for Nicole branching out and joining me in Fantasy Football. Looking forward to doing something new together.

I am grateful for Life. I personally like the older version, and paydays are the best.

I am grateful for Shelly. She has encouraged (ahem... pushed, threatened, forced) me to set another comedy date. I will let y'all know shortly but it will be a Tuesday in October. Thanks Shelly ;)

I was thinking of an old game I used to play at work... Grab Ass. It goes off of the concept that normally you are not supposed to grab someone's butt at work as that may be Sexual Harassment. But oddly enough, football players do that all the time. The only difference is that they say "Good Game!". Thus Grab Ass is born. You can grab all the butt you want at work as long as you say "Good Game". Then it is not Sexual Harassment... it's a game.

To all my friends out there... Game On!!

Old friends... and new ones

Today I am grateful for friends. I spent the weekend with some old friends from college. We went out to the Neon Cactus in West Lafayette (apparently no longer country bar). We hung out, we drank, and we had a great time. Then we went to a hole in the wall bar in Lafayette called Cox's. When I heard we were going to Cox's and did not know the spelling, I was nervous. Apparently it is a Karaoke Bar. When I found out it was a Karaoke bar, I was really scared then. I sang Baby Got Back and WKRP in Cincinnati. I also ran into another friend, Michelle Bryant, and made a new friend Mary. These two lovely ladies made our night. If you have never done Karaoke in a small town bar, you are missing out.

Friends are such an important part of my life. Old ones, new ones, just friends makes life enjoyable. I am already looking forward to seeing different friends on Friday and welcoming a friend home from a long journey.

Getting used to life

Today I am grateful for a return or at least devoloping a new normal. Currently sitting on the couch watching TV, watching Nicole, and watching Sarah. We are getting into a routine. Nicole is feeling human again. Sarah is starting to smile.

Life is good.

I am also grateful for my job. I am currently working on my new position in the organization as a Technical Trainer for the Tech Support department. It is very exciting as I will be paid for doing what I love to do which is to teach.

I am also grateful for friends returning home. See ya soon Shelly.

Finally, I am grateful for planning. Nicole and I are planning a trip to Florida in late October to see family and a good friend we did not get a chance to see in Muncie. I love that ironman of mine.

Quick Thought

I was listening to Devil Went Down to Georgia the other day and according to the song Johnny won, but I think the Devil won. He had the good bass groove and that 70's sound. I think the Devil gave up too easily. The only thing Johnny had was chicken in the bread pan and Granny's dog that doesn't bite. I guess southerners didn't appreciate a good 70's sound back then.

Just a thought.

I love it when a plan comes together

Man I miss the A-Team. Never in my life a group of guys that could do anything except shoot a gun and hit the person they were aiming for.

Today I am grateful for life coming together and watching it unfold perfectly. A friend of mine got a job offer and took it. It also worked out that he made a change to his retirement plan at the same time which will help him considerably.

Also, this same job offer, helped another friend stay employed long enough to find the job he has been wanting without fear of being unemployed.

I am also grateful for Shelly. She, and Mama Gena, have taught me to ask for what I want. I did that and may be creating my dream job.

I am grateful for coming home. There's no place like it especially when the weather's nice. I remember saying in High School "When I graduate, I am moving from this stupid state and never coming back."

I never left, and my life is great.

Call it Karma, Fate, Destiny, or just plain life, but it has unfolded perfectly.

Family

Today I am grateful for family. Over the weekend, Nicole and I went to Kentucky to see my family. We were able to introduce Sarah to whole bunch of people. I mean a large number of people as there is nothing to do in that town but to have sex (family members optional).

Everyone was excited to see her. We were excited to introduce her. My greatest moment was introducing her to my 94 year old Grandma. Grandma is not doing too well and I am elated that they got a chance to meet. I know it hurt Grandma when Katie died, and I am happy to see her smile.

We spent the night at Papaw and Mimi's house (aka Dad and Step-Mom). I never saw my Dad so loving. It made me happy.

Finally, we went to my Mom's family reunion. She is one of 11 kids and there are a ton of people there. It was nice to have everyone come up and comment as I always felt left out being so far away from most of them. I felt like I was with family.

Now the driving to and from sucked. My sister told me that the best time to travel is with babies as they sleep most the time. She is wrong. A 3.5 hour car ride took 5 hours each way as we had to stop and feed the baby. It's not like I can throw a bottle back there and have her go at it. Maybe when she gets older, it will get better, but for now my ass is home.

Back in the saddle again

Greetings,
Trying to get back in the habit so bare with me.

Today I am grateful for so many things.

• Sleep
• Family
• Mental Breaks (Movies)
• Sarah
• Nicole
• My Job
• My life
• You

The last three weeks have been a whirlwind. It has been tiring and rewarding. I am grateful for every minute of it. Little people are so cool. It is funny though. Throughout the pregnancy, Nicole and I could not see past it to imagine or prepare for the aftermath. Everyone told us "Get your sleep now!!" I dismissed them as I knew what to expect.

They were right.

My previous experience has been taking care of my niece. While this trained me for the physical aspect of feeding, diapers, etc. it did not train me for the mental aspect. I am responsible for this person.

Basically, caring for a child is not the hard part. The hard part is being a parent. That scares (and excites) me.

Looking into her blue eyes, makes me realize that I need to do more, be more, give more, and love more. I will be everything to that little girl. I am her father.

Now enough with the mushy stuff.

The best perk so far... Nicole's boobs. Damn. Now the Michelles know I am a Scorpio so they understand. By the way... I am a happy Scorpio.

To see more of Sarah, visit http://paynesite.homedns.org/sarah

Happy 4th of July

I'm still here. I'm tired. I just wanted to say happy 4th of July to everyone. I will be posting again, so don't forget about me.

Hugs to you all. Big hugs to the sexy ones (wink).

Sarah Is Here

Holy Crap... it happened. Sarah arrived on Thursday June 14th at 10:16am. She weighed 9lbs. 11oz. She is 20 3/4 inches long with a 14 3/4 in. head.

Big Baby...

Sarah had a little bit of a rough start. Her blood sugar levels were low so the nurses tried to feed her. Apparently they fed her too much and she had some tummy issues. Because of that, she was admitted to the NICU (Newborn Intensive Care Unit). She was give an IV of dextrose (sugar water) to keep her blood sugar normal so they did not have to feed her as often. In the last 24 hours she has been on the IV. Now they have taken her off and are just watching her. If everything goes well, and it will, Mom, Sarah, and I will be going home on Father's Day. It's the best present ever.

FYI... the NICU is not necessarily a bad place. They have two places for babies, 1. In the room with parents or the nursery if they are completely healthy and 2. the NICU. NICU babies range from a little something to very sick babies. Sarah was a little something. Everytime I tell someone that she is in the NICU, people think the worst and that is not the case. We are all doing well. Just wanted to send this out so that everyone knows. Below are pictures.

Eric

Friends, Friends, Friends

Today I am grateful for teachers. I am no longer teaching CIT 415 for IUPUI as my focus will need to change. Met Ryan Birk today who is taking over. Nice person who seems like he wants to teach as much as I do. Very Cool. Also he is a Linux geek so Craig will be happy about that.

Today I am grateful for those who love Nicole and I. Two more go-to-sleeps until Sarah. This week people have been coming out of the woodwork to check on us and to see how things are going. To those, again I say Thank You.

It seems that before people would be afraid to ask as it might upset us. People not asking about us was the upsetting part. It's not like we forgot about what happened with Katie and by asking we have to relive it all over again. Until last Sunday, we had experienced every one of those days and compared it to the last pregnancy on a daily basis.

Now we are on new ground and are running. Please forgive me as my comments appear to be lop sided because they are. Not much else to think about. The only other thing to think about is the spa day tomorrow. Both Nicole and I are getting a manicure, pedicure, and facial. If you see me, remind me and I will show you my tootsie's. I am thinking of a flag theme on my nails to go with Flag Day.

This is Crazy, This is Crazy, This is Crazy

Today I am grateful for my excitement, nervousness, and sheer panic. All of these emotions are growing as Nicole and I are getting closer to Flag Day. June 14th is Flag Day and the day Sarah arrives.

Today I am grateful for the staff at the St. Vincent's Center for Prenatal Diagnosis. They have been very supportive of us and our emotions and we thank them vehemently. Today was the Amniocentesis and per the results that have already received, Sarah's lungs are ready to Rock -n- Roll. Since then both Nicole and I have been jittery. We have this nervous anticipation. Kinda like before you do something that you want to do but is scary (i.e. white water rafting, skydiving, etc..) If you can experience about 14 different emotions at once, that is what we are feeling. Let me know if you get the referenced in the title as it kinda relates to how I am feeling. Great Movie.

Today I am grateful for Nicole. I was at work today and both of us were feeling the same way. Nicole wanted me to call off for tomorrow and start my leave early but realized that was silly and was not going to ask. At the same time, I was not able to work and just wanted to call off tomorrow and start my leave early to be with her. We talked and realized we had the same idea and it was a good one. I am on leave now.

The following is from Nicole....
Thank you to everyone who has called, e-mailed, and have kept us in their thoughts. Especially this week but throughout the pregnancy too. All of you are very special to us.

Brave New World

Today I am grateful for getting past what was to be a stressful weekend. Saw many movies over the weekend to get past the 36.5 week mark.

I am also grateful for my family. I talked to my sister Leah about having my brother Tim and other sister Traci as God Parents instead of her and her husband Lee. She was so cool about it and understood how much it would mean to them. I love her for that. Also, my brother came over today and helped me to hang shutters on the back of the house. He didn't so much help but really just did it all himself. The house looks so much better. Many new houses seem incomplete on the back end. Adding shutters really helps. I have had the shutters for two years and had to get them up this weekend as part of my nesting.

I am grateful for nesting. It's nice. Probably will want to get more things done when Sarah gets here.

I am grateful for anticipation. I have had fear through most of this pregnancy and it is quickly moving towards anticipation and excitement. Beginning to start what VH1 would call my "Best Week Ever!"

Finally, I am grateful for my friends who read this and support Nicole and I. This Glog/Blog/Flog is written for me and for you. Thank you for sharing in my life.

Getting to know you

Today I am grateful for Kathy Carroll. She runs the RTS (Resolve Through Sharing) group for St. Vincent's Women's Hospital. She has helped Nicole, myself, and countless others to share their grief. She is a wonderful woman for whom I would bend over backwards for. I hope that none of you ever have to meet her, but if you do, you will know what I mean.

I am also grateful for old friends. Today Nicole and I had dinner at Applebee's. We saw an old friend and was able to instantly reconnect and share with one another. We are also gathering lists of people to call when Sarah arrives and thinking that I need to talk to these people more as they are important to me.

Speaking of restaurants, did you hear they are researching the 5 second rule? According to research you have 30 seconds for soft food and up to one minute for hard food. The tests were done using apple slices and skittles. Many in the restaurant business have known this for years, but if you piss off the server or the kitchen, the food won't hit the floor it just won't be good for you.

Oedipus Complete

First of all, congratulations to Nicole for passing her NCLEX exam and becoming a Registered Nurse. Now I am married to a hotty, pregnant, nurse. There has got to be webpages about that.

Today I am grateful for Nicole. Passing her exam is awesome. All that hard work to acheive a goal of hers is great. I am proud that she stuck to it as it would have been easy to quit.

I am also grateful for technology. Had another ultrasound with 4-D technology. Great pictures and a great movie. Let me know and I can email it to you. It is 7MB in size.

I am again grateful for getting chores done. I have been good this week and gotten two more chores done. All that is left is the fence, shutters, and cleaning windows. Yeah. I have also come to the realization that I am nesting and I don't care who knows it.

Getting Chores Done

Today I am grateful for sticking to what I said I would. Got the blinds done. The rest of the week includes the cleaning the windows.

I am grateful for meeting new people. A new employee started today, Chris, and seems like a nice person. Hope it works out well as I won't be training him.

I am grateful for speakerphone. I am on hold right now and was able to put the phone down and type as I wait.

I am also grateful for the weather. It is a lot cooler and more comfortable. I can drive with the windows down and the system up.

I am also grateful for being able to help others. Our neighbor who lost a baby came over yesterday and was having a bad day. Being able to listen and not try to fix her because there is nothing wrong.

Finally, I am grateful for knowing that typically when a women tells me about her problems, she is not wanting advice. She is wanting someone to listen, empathize, and just to be there. Listening to some people, I wish more of my brethren knew this.

Changing My Mind

Today I am grateful for being able to change my mind. I had all sorts of plans this weekend and did not do any of them. I sat on my ass and relaxed. It was wonderful. I went out to dinner with my wife and did a little shopping. It was fantastic.

I am also grateful for Nicole. Her NCLEX exam is on Tuesday. This is the test that certifies her as a nurse to the state of Indiana. She already takes care of me and has been a nurse for her family for some time now. She is studying very hard and I have the utmost confidence in her.

I am also grateful for showers. Nicole and I took a hour long shower today. Getting the big tub was the best idea we ever had. The shower was so relaxing. We took turns sitting down while the other sat or stood. If you have never sat down in a shower, I would recommend it. It's like being rained on but it is warm and comforting.

Beginning my last full work week before my leave. I have been trying not to count down things until Sarah, but that is not happening. Hopefully I can stay busy until then. The idea is to get my chores done a little every day to make up for my mind change.

See Ya.

It's the freakin' weekend

'Bout to have me some fun.

Today I am grateful for the weekend. Have many chores to do, but it is always nice to know that a productive weekend was achieved.

Today I am also grateful for Bingo. There is a show on ABC called National Bingo Night. This show is addictive. Print off cards, play at home, and I can win prizes too. Sweet!!!

Finally, I am grateful for Emule. I get to download materials that I already own so I do not infringe on copyright material.

Have a great weekend.

Terrific Thursday

Today I am grateful for the impacts that we make without realizing it. How our words and actions can help, support, encourage, and hurt. Let's try not to let our impacts hurt.

Today I am also grateful when you are informed of the impact we make. Bridget, David, Nicole, and I are in a very exclusive club. I found out today that not only does she read this, but that it has helped. All that I have ever wanted to do since Katie is to keep her memory alive and to let others know they are not alone. I would like to hear more about Carson if you have time.

"And now for something completely different"

A skeleton walks into a bar and orders a beer and a mop.
Two women walk into a bar. The third one ducks.

Did you hear that a Harry Potter theme park is going to be built in Florida. They claim that it will have as much magic as the books. Their first trick... making the money from your wallet vanish.

What would you call a Wiener dog's wiener? A lil' smokie.

Did you hear the story out of India. Lawyers tied a young man to a tree and beat him outside a court in India for refusing to marry one of their relatives.

The man was quoted as saying this pain only lasted for a little bit and ended versus marriage which lasts a lot longer.


There, I feel better now.

Hump Day

Today I am grateful for the little things. Work week being half over, a good dinner, my wang.

I am grateful today for my Mom. We have a monthly engagement for dinner and had a wonderful dinner at Carrabba's. She is easy to talk to. She doesn't intrude on my life and enjoys peaceful moments like I do. I know she wants to be more involved, but is patient and loving. I love her for that.

I am also grateful for coincidence. Today I received an email incorrectly to epayne@gmail.com. I get so much email from people who think they are emailing someone else. I kindly reply stating they have the wrong email address. Usually I don't get a response afterwards, but this was funny so I share.

Ross is the guy's name and he emailed Estelle Payne to congratulate her on her good news. I replied that he had the wrong email address and to apologize for the confusion. He, in turn, replied back saying thank you and that if I was pregnant, congratulations to me too. Therefore, I replied to him saying that my wife is and to wish Estelle congratulations from Nicole and I.

Ross is in Australia. If he replies back again, maybe this will begin a strange pen pal friendship as he sounds nice. It's funny how it's the little things that can make the biggest impacts on your life. Now I don't know if this will be one of them, but think back on your own and see what you come up with.

My favorite is the "Stripping Pizza Man" story. I can go into that more, but if the strange people I delivered Cheese Stix to did not make me an offer to come back and party with them and Glen Robinson, I would not have met my best friends, my wife, and my life would be completely different.

Thanks Mad Mushroom.

Back to the GrindStone

Today I am grateful for new things. I am training a coworker and he is eager to get on the phones and resolve issues. While he may not know the product yet, the attitude is refreshing. Also, my dog got a new bed and apparently loves it. Currently not bothering Nicole or I and I like that.

I am also grateful for not being on-call. I was able to leave work today and not have to think about it. I actually stayed later to help some coworkers out. I am happy to help and I believe that they are grateful. They don't have a glog, so I write this on their behalf.

My God it is hot outside. How hot is it? It's so hot, that Paris Hilton didn't know what to say. Isn't it still spring. Just like Indiana. Don't like the weather, wait five minutes. 12 weeks in Washington sounds like a good idea. I'm not stalking Shelly, but if you think you see me, you didn't.

Memorial Day

Today I am grateful for Holidays. Today is Memorial Day. The day in which we remember our fallen Americans. Also the day for dumb asses around the block to set off fireworks because the stores are now open.

Today I am also grateful for accomplishments. Got Sarah's room done today. Wrote down a list of items to get done before she gets here and it is very short. Very excited about that. Wrote down a list of things to get done around the house before Sarah gets here. Much longer list. Not excited about that.

Finally, today I am grateful for Nicole's Mother. We have gotten the feeling over the last couple of days that our parents want to help us finish things up. So Nicole invited her mother to come over and do laundry for all of the baby clothes. My God, do we have a lot of clothes. Based on the number of items that we have that is 0-3 months, clothes are dispensable. We could put her in something new everyday and not wear the same thing twice. When she gets to 3-6 months we don't have as much. When we get to 6-12 months, the baby will be naked. By then, we will been shopping so the baby won't have to be naked even though babies love it when they are.

And on the seventh day....

I rested. Man it felt good. I am grateful for accomplishing some tasks today while at the same time relaxing and sleeping in. I am also grateful that it is Sunday and I don't have to go to work tomorrow.

Today Nicole and I picked out the last couple of items for Sarah's room. It's been tough and we have procastinated as much as possible but it is coming down to the wire to get things done. No major changes, but new decorations and a new feel to make this room Sarah's.

Tomorrow we get to finish her room. Some touch-up paint, some caulking around trim (that sounds dirty), and some cleaning and we are ready to go. I am trying not to countdown to everything but it is hard to do.

Once Sarah gets here, I should have some time to schedule my next comedy engagement. I still think back about it and remember how cool it was. I do have a video that can be downloaded if anyone is interested.

Reunited

Reunited and it feels so good. I took the last week off as I was on-call at my work. Being on-call makes me available via cell phone 24/7 and they take advantage of that. If I was not on my cell phone I was not near a computer so I didn't make any entries. Sorry about that. I am grateful to Nicole for taking care of me during that week.

Today I am grateful for things coming together. Nicole and I finally have a date for Sarah's arrival. June 14th. Everything is scheduled including my time off. I am grateful for that too. I think Nicole and I are going to relax the day before and go to a spa. Manicures and facials for both. Nicole will get a pedicure. I am looking for a relaxation massage. Nicole says I can't get a happy ending but I am still hopeful.

Happy Endings to you all..

A Little R and R

Today I am grateful for relaxation. The beginning of this week was so hectic. It is nice to have a relaxing evening at home with my lovely wife.

I am also grateful for everyone who has inquired about my comedy routine. It is a wonderful feeling to know how much everyone cares about you. You can check it out at http://www.rooftopcomedy.com/watch_clips.php?clip=Eric_Payne_20070515&channel=303

Nicole was showing me a picture of this woman with fake boobs and nothing else. She kinda looked like the lady from There's Something About Mary. It's nice to know that when she dies and decomposes her boobs will still be firmly planted on her chest. The other funny part was how everyone around her was taking pictures, pointing, and making comments. I would only imagine that she has to think she is hot stuff. No one would like that much attention if they thought they were unattractive. Way to go Grandma!

Comedy Tonight

Something familiar, something peculiar
Something for everyone: a comedy tonight
Something appealing, something appalling
Something for everyone: a comedy tonight

Today I am grateful for dreams. I achieved a dream of mine tonight that I never even realized I had until a very smart woman asked me if I could be anything, what would that be?

A Stand-Up Comic. (Thanks Shelly)

Tonight was my first stand-up comedy routine. I only had three minutes but what a time it was. I was nervous, excited, and scared at the same time. It was thrilling. It was over before I knew it. I had 6 index cards with material and only got to 2 of them. I guess I have more stuff for the next time. It is amazing how you can't see anything when you are up there. It was actually good that I couldn't as the audience dissappeared and wasn't able to feed my nervousness. Was I funny? I think so. I got some laughs eventhough half the crowd was there for me. Will I do it again? Your damn right I will. A comedian gots to do what a comedian gots to do.

I am also grateful for all of my family and friends that showed up to support me. It meant everything to show you all cared and I love you all for that. Below is a list in no particular order of the people present as I believe they deserve recognition too.

Nicole (my wife)
Sharon (Mom)
GayAnn (mother-in-law)
Flo
Jean
Todd
Craig
Michelle (Shelly)
Christian
Laura
Aggie
Jeff
Thom
Nicole
Kathy
Myles
Tera
Leila
John
Kate
Tony
Michelle
Rob

There are a couple of other people that did not make it but really wanted to support me and have. I thank them as well. (You know who you are)

Coming Home

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Almost There

Today I am grateful for several things.
1. Nicole asserting her independence and going on the Womyn's camp.
2. Mama Gena for telling Nicole to ask for what she wants.
3. My friend Tony for finally getting that college degree after 20 or so years.
4. For my company being so busy that opportunities are around the corner for me.
5. Being acknowledged by a manager that is not my own for the work I do.
6. The ability to be me for a whole weekend.
7. The support I am getting from everyone about my comedy routine.
8. Getting excited about Sarah.
9. Getting excited and nervous about my comedy routine.
10. A new leaf blower.

I am concerned about one thing that I saw yesterday... Barry Gibb's nipple. There are certain things in life that you do not need to experience to know it is bad. Some phrases come to mind that are experiences I have not had and don't need to.
"That tastes like Sh*t." Has anyone really tasted that. If you have, don't tell me.
"It's like a bullet in your head." One word, ouch.
"That tastes like piss." The only person who I would understand saying that is Kevin Costner (Waterworld)
"Gag me with a chainsaw" I've seen a lot of horror movies and haven't seen this gem yet.
"Hey look, Barry Gibb's nipple" Wednesday on American Idol, very scary. Note to self, when I am 60 don't wear see through clothing.

Nose to the grind stone

Well it's Monday. I got a job. I got sh*t to do. I am grateful for that. I would go stir crazy with nothing to do. Got a tour of St.Vincent's Women Hospital today. It is nice. I think Nicole and I are going for the suite. It's an extra $100 a day but there are two rooms and how often do you get a chance for a suite in a hospital.

I am also grateful for Sarah's activity. It keeps us sane. She is currently kicking the crap out of mom. Sarah is the only person I know that I will allow to kick Nicole's butt and I won't do anything about it. I swear this girl is all feet and they are pushing.

Sharing

Today I am grateful for sharing. Shelly read my "Hooray for Boobies" post and decided to share a funny video on Breastfeeding and a great shot of a tree with a nipple. Thanks Shelly.

I am also grateful for Nicole's pregnancy. It gives us the gift of life, the amazement at the wonder of nature, and the ability to blame anything on the pregnancy. This pregnancy has given Nicole several gifts too. She now has a better sense of smell than our Beagle. She also now has two shelves for storing various items. I'm thinking knick-knacks.

I am also grateful for Tide To-Go. Spilled some "Hot Pockets", actually "Lean Pockets" as I am concerned about my figure but still want diarrhea from time to time, on my shirt. Okay, I stole that last bit, but it is funny. Nicole bought some and it worked wonders. Stain is gone. No muss, no fuss. I highly recommend for anyone with a upper shelf, lower shelf, or both shelves.

Hooray for Boobies

Today I am grateful for the precision in which our bodies work. I am amazed to see how inter-connected we are as a species and the delicate balance nature provides. I am also amazed how we as humans strive for that same balance.

Today I am also grateful for boobies. Today Nicole and I attended a Breastfeeding class. I have also realized that I am 12 years old mentally. We joked about seeing boobies (by the way, I can't not smile when writing or saying the word "boobies") but I really did not expect to see them. I expected mannequins and fake boobies but we saw them on tape. It was odd. The only boobies I had seen on tape had other purposes and I was a bit perplexed. It was good that we talked about it. I would encourage any man to talk to his partner before seeing other boobies (especially professional boobie places) to gather the ground rules. Do I look? Do I point? Do I shout out "Damn, check out them knockers?" By the way the answer to the last one is no.

I could have handled the video as typically there was a baby attached and they made it less juvenile. But some of the scenes were just too much. One lady just whipped open her shirt and flopped out both boobs with no baby around. WTF???!!! That one threw me for a loop. Then there was "Hands On" training. The instructor is grabbing her boobs. The class is grabbing their boobs. I didn't know where to look, I was panicked. I swear if someone had whipped one out I would have bolted.

All in all it was a good experience. I was pretty well behaved for the most part. My mentality was contained to the occasional wink and smile to Nicole. I kept is bottled up inside. Then class was ended. Thank Goodness. I walk outside and can't hold it in any longer. I start to giggle. I get to the car, close the door, and shout "Boobies!" Now Nicole makes me smile anytime she leans over and gently whispers in my ear "Boobies." I Love her for understanding my age and catering to it.

Man, I love being 12.

The Alpha and the Omega

Today I am grateful for beginnings and endings. Many consider endings to be a negative aspect but I don't believe that is true. Endings are necessary for new beginnings. Endings can be a goal achieved, an accomplishment, a victory.

Yesterday, Nicole was pinned by IU Kokomo for her completion of her academic coursework and achieving an Associates degree in Nursing. I am so proud of her. Her classwork is ending. Her new career as a Registered Nurse is beginning.

Tomorrow I get to go to a breast feeding class. I will probably get to see boobies and I am grateful for that. Hee hee. If you hear someone sound like Beavis from 10am - 12:30pm tomorrow, that is me.

Did you hear that Paris Hilton was sentenced to 45 days in jail? Also, Fox unveiled its new reality show "Prison Break, The Simple Life 3!" Not to hog all of the spotlight, Nicole Richie released a statement about something but no one cared.

Remembering the Past

Today I am grateful for memories. They are what make you rich. I have been thinking back since the auditions yesterday and the questionnaire that you have to fill out makes you think as well. Check it out for yourself.

http://www.nbc.com/Casting/Applications/DOND_Long_App.pdf

I wanted to share one of my answers with you. I think its funny. And if you can't laugh at yourself, you probably don't laugh much. That is a shame.

16) Describe your most embarrassing moment.
It was 5th grade. I had to fart. I tried to let it out slowly hoping it would be silent. It was not. It was the longest fart in the history of my life. At the end, the entire class was silent but for one person, my teacher, Mr. Wyatt. His only response was to put his hand on my shoulder and speak softly "Easy boy. Easy."

Moral of the story:
May people remember what you left behind in life and hopefully can't smell it.

Deal or No Deal

Today I am grateful for comfortable shoes. I am also grateful for chairs that are very portable. Finally, I am grateful for a cool spring breeze on a hot first day of May.

Today I stood in line for 7 hours for a 20 second interview. Why, you may ask? Today was open casting calls for Deal or No Deal. There were a ton of people there. The line was at least a mile long maybe two. We all stood in line for a chance to go on a game show for a chance to win money. There were people from Michigan, Kentucky, Ohio, Illinois, and even Wisconsin. I met many of them. It is nice that when complete strangers are together for a long time, you can quickly develop a bond and a brief friendship.

So what was the 20 second interview. Basically after filling out a one page questionnaire, you were given 20 seconds to tell the person your name, your occupation, and something unique about you. Here's mine...

Hello, my name is Eric Payne and I am a technical support engineer for a local software company so basically if your computer breaks and you actually speak to someone in the US, you are talking to me. Many of my friends refer to me as the "stripping pizza man" and in two weeks I will begin my professional stand-up career at a local comedy club.

The guy giggled at the stripping pizza man bit and I liked that. So what's next? Don't know. After the extensive interview, we were excused to go home. They may call, they may not. Either way, I feel that I have a better chance than any lottery to get on that show. If I do, maybe I will win some money to go on that dream vacation, provide a quality education for Sarah, and donate some to the International Vasa Previa Foundation.

Good luck to all that hung out with me; it was an experience to remember.

Anticipation

Today I am grateful for anticipation. Tomorrow I will try out to be on Deal or No Deal. Wish me luck. I think I would be a good contestant.

I'm good enough.
I'm smart enough.
And dog gone it, people like me.

Thanks Stuart Smalley. Everyone could learn a little from you.

It's late so this one is brief. Have a good night and join me tomorrow when the Favorites will change from movies to songs for the month of May.

Takin' it Easy

Today I am grateful for doing nothing. I am also grateful for not feeling guilty about it. I could have done yard work. I could have done some chores. Sometimes you gotta stop and smell the roses and today was that day.

It was a beautiful day. The sun, the wind, the temperature, it was perfect.

I am also grateful for my alone time. Nicole ran some errands and I was alone for three hours. Now, don't get me wrong, I love my wife and cherish our time together, but time alone is nice just to be me.

Something I have noticed about the differences between men and women. Typically men are more competitive. Now, Shelly, I said "typically". This is especially true between me and Nicole. Nicole normally doesn't give a rats ass about winning. It is about spending time together and enjoying each other's company. Not me, man. Everything is a competition. Who will wake up first and take the dog out? Can I shower in the time it takes Nicole to blow dry her hair? Can I get ready for bed, before she does? Everything is a competition. You wanna know what else? I win almost all the time. You wanna know something else? I don't tell her. It makes it easier to win.

Saturday Night's Alright for Fightin'

Today I am grateful for tradition. I saw the new James Bond movie tonight and it was surprisingly good. You can always count on James to get the bad guy and the girl all the while, he's kicking butt.

I am also grateful for patience. Twice today, I experienced both side of the patience coin. First an elderly man at Lowe's dropped his purchase. The bagged had ripped and the few things he purchased were strewn into the parking lot. Up pulls a man trying to leave and impatiently nudges up on him as he is trying to pick up his items. My hands are full and Nicole helps him. The man has his belongings and gets out of the way of the truck and the truck screams off.

The other time, we were at Wal-Mart and an elderly woman in a motorized cart asked me about fertilizer for her shrubs. I was going to say bush but that sounded dirty. Instead of blowing her off, I helped the lady find the product she needed and the explanation she wanted. It took an extra couple of minutes, but it felt good.

All we need is just a little patience. Guns N Roses. Good band. Broken up. Very sad. (That's for you Nicole).

One of my mottos is "Happy wife, happy life". To this point I will apologize for anything. All Nicole has to do is look at me and the first words out of my mouth is "I'm sorry." I have no idea what I've done, but I've done something. If I burp, I apologize. If I fart, I apologize. If I hear a strange noise outside that sounds remotely close to a burp or fart, I apologize. Even when I scared her after her trying to scare me, I apologized. But she likes me this way, she needs me this way. My apologies have saved her embarrassment too. A while back, we are getting out of the car and Nicole burps. Not a quaint burp, but a burp like the one's from Revenge of the Nerds. Normally this would not be so bad, but there is a gentleman in the parking lot. Quickly I spring into action and apologize for her burp. She says nothing, but I know she is relieved. This is a wonderful part of our relationship and I love her for it. She keeps me in check (which I need), and I keep her out of embarrassment (mostly).

TGIF

Today I am grateful for Friday. End of the work week. Beginning of the weekend. And from what Loverboy tells me, "Everybody's working for the weekend."

I hear it is going to be a nice weekend. Good for working in the yard. I have come to value my yard and the impression it gives. I look at some houses and they don't look as nice with a crappy yard. Now, I don't have the money to spend on ChemLawn, but I keep it nice and mostly weed free. Doesn't the word ChemLawn sound a little off to anyone. I don't think the word Chemicals goes well with lawn. Sounds like an oxymoron. It's like saying "Buy our Organic Mosquito repellent (Now with DEET!!)."

I am grateful for surprises. Even the little ones. Nicole mentioned she wanted pizza, so I spring into action. Fake a close call with a car to get off the phone. Call pizza place and make order. Extra Bonus: Get movies for night in. Pick up pizza. Call and say I'm running late because of that darn-tootin' traffic. Viola. Dinner, Movie, and Surprises.

You know what I have determined, the secret of happiness is not the big things, it's all the little things. Looking at the world as a child and enjoying the beauty. Being a kid at heart and having fun. Next time you go into a store with automatic doors, say something like "Open Sesame!" and pretend you are making the doors move. Or when walking, pick it up into a skip and watch the faces on others. Play perdiddle.

Have fun.

Back in the Saddle Again

Greetings Y'all. Back at work today and I am grateful for that. I don't know what I would do without work. I would honestly be the person winning the lottery and still working. Maybe not a paying job, but still definitely working. The unfortunate realization is that you have to buy lottery tickets to win the lottery. Not much chance in finding the winning ticket.

I am grateful for the doctors and nurses at Nicole's OB. They are really nice, careful, and thorough. It is reassuring. We started going weekly this week and starting next week we will be having weekly BPPs (Bio-Physical Profiles) of Sarah. This is where they watch her for a half hour on the ultrasound and grade her by her movements. Pretty cool stuff.

Finished class today. Yeahhh!. I love teaching but it is nice when it is over.

No more classes. No more books. No more teachers dirty looks.

I really don't give dirty looks. Have you ever seen a Computer Information Technology classroom? Not really the cream of the crop if you know what I mean. Some would burst into flames if you took them outside in the sun. Vampires are looking at them and saying "Damn! Get some sun dude." Now, Nicole's nursing classroom, that's where I would give the dirty looks. Meow, baby.

Have you ever scared somebody really good? I mean to the point where they jump back, practically have a heart attack, and then get a mad at you for scaring them? This is something to cherish. I did this the other day with Nicole. However, she was trying to scare me, which is the ironic part. I am taking a shower, and I hear her sneaking up on me, which is not happening very well, so I watch. She sneaks up to the curtain and as she starts to fling open the curtain, I get the drop and do it first and scare the be-jesus (spelling?) out of her. Her voice starts as this low roar in the attempt to scare me and quickly changes to a howling screech as she is the startled one. This, I have determined, is the best time to scare someone. When they are trying to scare you.

Boo!

Happy Birthday

Katie,

Happy Birthday. I miss you.

Love,
Dad

We Remember Them

Today I am grateful for our friends and family. Tomorrow is a very special day. It is Katie's birthday. Though she is not here, her remembrance is what we find to be so special. Receiving cards today from friends to say they are thinking of us and especially her.

Family for being with us tomorrow. We are going to lunch with our Mothers, my brother, and my sister. For them wanting to spend time with us on her day and that they remember.

If there is anything that I have learned from this experience is that there is nothing anyone can say or do to make it better so don't. All you can do is listen and be there. When people try to explain or console they typically screw it up even though they have the best of intentions.

The best remark/gesture that I received from anyone was "That Sucks! I am sorry." and he hugged me.

That was perfect.

Below is a poem from our support group that I would like to share.

In the rising of the sun and in its going down,

We remember them.

In the blowing of the wind and in the chill of winter,

We remember them.

In the opening of buds and in the warmth of summer,

We remember them.

In the rustling of leaves and the beauty of autumn,

We remember them.

In the beginning of the year and when it ends,

We remember them.

When we are weary and in need of strength,

We remember them.

When we are lost and sick at heart,

We remember them.

When we have joys we yearn to share,

We remember them.

So long as we live, they too shall live,

for they are now a part of us, as

We remember them.

Monday Madness

Actually the opposite.

Today I am grateful for an easy day at work. I don't get too many of these so I cherish them when they arrive. I appreciate that we are busy as it gives me a feeling of job security (justified or not) and that is a good thing.

I am again grateful for such a beautiful day. I got all my chores done yesterday so I could enjoy the wind and the warmth and the sun peaking out every once in a while.

I am also grateful for my large bathtub. Yesterday and today, Nicole and I had to use the little bathroom as I re-caulked the tub. It is true what they say... You don't know what you got until it's gone. Thanks Cinderella.

Speaking of bathrooms, did you ever have a poo that just makes your day? I don't want to be gross here, but I had one a couple of days ago and I can't get it out of my mind. It's not like I had cramps and ran to the bathroom, it was like a good idea. "Hey, I could go to the bathroom now." You sit down and there it is. No straining. No wondering "Am I done yet?" Just quick and to the point. Then the clean-up is a snap. No continual clean-up wondering "My God, when will I get it all?"

All in all, just a good poo. I am grateful for it and it made my day.

Sunday, Bloody Sunday

It was a bloody sunday as I was working around the house and scraped my knuckles. No deeper meaning here.

Today I am grateful for being productive. Did I have to do anything around the house? No, but I did much yardwork and re-caulked the tub. I felt like I accomplished something other than a lot of TV watching. It felt good, and I am tired.

I am grateful for my brother Tim again today. He has a wonderful heart and a love for animals. Today, he found a dog wandering the streets. Instead of doing what most people would have which is simply a comment about the poor dog at most, he stopped and picked up the dog. Now he is going to take care of the dog until he can find his owner or a good home.

We all want to do more for others, it warms the heart when we actually do more for others. And that includes animals.

I was thinking today about Golf. I was thinking today about sex. I was amazed how similar the two are. Here is a partial list that I have come up with comparing the two.

1. You think your pretty good at it until you see a professional do it and then realize how much you suck at it.

2. Practicing is not as much fun as the real thing.

3. You are trying to get it in the hole.

4. You like your equipment, but other people have nicer equipment than you do.

5. The flexibility in the shaft can really help you or hurt you.

7. It is a lot easier with spiked shoes as you get better traction.

8. Your balls look nicer after they have been washed.

9. If you put it in the rough, that is probably not where you want to be.

10. It is nicer to play where the turf has been well taken care of.

Freaky Friday

Today I am grateful for the end of a very busy work week. On one hand, I am grateful to be busy as it is a sign of job security and that is good. On the other hand, I am completely exhausted.

I am grateful for going to bed early on a Friday Night. Heck, I remember about 10 years ago, I would be just getting ready to go out. Woohoo, Party!!!

I am grateful for the contagious nature of yawns. It is interesting to see the relationship between humans and other animals. My dog just yawned, and I happened to hear it, so I yawned. I actually just yawned again writing about this so I better stop. Let me know if you yawned reading this section.

Hey... did you hear that the Catholic Church officially ended limbo after thousands of years? I thought they would have ended a lot sooner than now. I mean, look at the pope and the cardinals, I bet none of them could get under that limbo bar. Next on the list... Chicken Dance.

Deep Thoughts

By
Jack Handy

Today I am grateful for my brother, Tim. He hasn't always been the best brother, especially when growing up. I didn't like him at all for the longest time. But over the last 10 years or so, my brother has changed. Yeah, he still not perfect, but he is my brother and the best one I will ever have. He has realized how the first 25 years of his life did not go down the right road, and changed course. He has made a conscious effort to try not to live off of my mom. Helps my sister and her children. He has befriended me and Nicole and we love to hang with him now. He has become a third parent to my other sister's two sons. He's just great, and I am so very proud to call him my brother.

Have you ever been totally busted staring at someone. Not just someone catching you looking or catching a glimpse, but a full-on gawking stare. Something like a complete stalker would do. There nothing you can do. You just have to come out of the gaze, and walk away in shame. There are typically two reasons to stare at someone.
1. Major hotness.
2. Major Freak (i.e. two heads, hump, third breast)

So the next time you find someone staring at you. Think back to this and see if you can determine which group you are in. Personally, I am a major freak. And I like it.

Hump Day

Why do they call it hump day, when most people have sex on the weekends?

Today I am grateful for it just being Wednesday. The work week is half over. It was a little cold but still pleasant. Tomorrow is a long day, but then Friday... Yeah!

I am grateful that Sarah is so active inside Nicole's belly. I get to feel her move often and because of a classmate of Nicole's, I get to hear her heartbeat too. It's got a nice rhythm and I can dance to it, so I give it a 7.

I am grateful for my co-workers. I informed one person of my Blog/Glog/Flog and soon several knew and were asking for the URL. I like that I have made friends there and hopefully we will start hanging out outside of work. That would soooo rock. We work in an environment where everyone calls and tells us what is wrong and how we keep a good atmosphere is amazing.

I keep hearing from people that I should enjoy my sleep now because when Sarah gets here, there goes my sleep. HA! I have a beagle that gets up every three hours and whines and moans until you take her out to pee, poop, or eat. If Nicole or I don't get up, the dog will pee or poop on the floor. We been dealing with that for two years. I don't think a baby is going to be much different. The baby will probably be cuter and smell better most of the time though. I just hope we can get them on the same schedule.

Spring is back

Today I am grateful for the weather. Started off cold, but turned into a perfect day. It is a shame that I was stuck at work and teaching. Oh well.

I am also grateful for driving. Having the windows down and a good song on and the wind whipping through the car. Nothing like it. Reminds me of when I was a kid and would stick my arm out the window and pretend it was flying. Did it again for old times sake.

I am grateful for my last lecture. Only 3 more classes to go. I enjoy the summer so much as it seems that I get to relax and am not pulled in so many directions.

I am also grateful for my support group. I get to meet with several friends in a subsequent pregnancy after a infant loss group. Pretty particular, but a great group of people who share with Nicole and I something so personal that most cannot relate.

Finally, I am grateful that most people can't relate to what Nicole and I have gone through and hope that no one else will ever be able to relate even though that isn't possible.

FLOG --

Speaking of driving... Have you noticed lately when people are turning left or right, they somehow feel the need to swing the car out before turning in the opposite direction. What is this? It's not like the Indy 500 or something. You are going 25 in a Volvo, you don't swing out to make the turn; I'm pretty sure she'll hold.

News Flash: Turn signals aren't just a reminder for the driver which way he's going. New technology has allowed for other people to know what you are intending to do when you use them.

Come Monday

it'll be all right. Come Monday, I'll be holdin' you tight. I spent four lonely days in a brown L. A. haze and I just want you back by my side.

Today I am grateful for Spring. It is finally back and feels oh so good. The smells of spring make me breath a sigh of relief that hopefully winter is over. Don't get me wrong, by the end of summer, I will be looking forward to winter.

I am grateful that school is nearing its end. Both for me as a teacher and Nicole as a student. She will be graduating with an Associates degree in Nursing. That is so hot. I understand it is a complete Oedipus complex being that my mother is a nurse, but it is my complex and not yours.

The bad part about the end of school, especially for me, is that I stop caring about teaching and just want it to end. Thus, I will start to procrastinate terribly which brings me to the Flog part.

Have you ever procastibated? Procrastibating is the combination of procrastinating and masturbating. For example, you have a paper to write for school or work or something. You are staring at a blank screen and nothing is entering your mind. You need to focus on something else for a bit. Open up the web browser and start surfing. By the time you get to the second Internet site you know of, you are looking at porn. Then your mind really starts working. Heck, I got nothing better to do right now. So you go at it and 3 minutes later, you are relaxed and more focused on completing the job at hand. By that, I mean the paper.

Catch Up Day

Today I am grateful that I can take a day or two off of my Glog/Blog/Flog. I had a very busy weekend with 3 different parties on Saturday. By the way, I am turning a new phrase. A Flog is a funny blog.

I am grateful for babies, like the baby shower we went to. I am grateful for Family, even though they aren't blood related, they are family and I enjoyed a 60th birthday party. I am also grateful for friends, like my friend Tom whose birthday is on the 18th and we started partying early.

I heard from Tony today. I am proud of him for graduating with a Bachelor's degree, turning 40, and already talking about becoming a lawyer or getting his Master's degree. Way to go. Looking forward to the party and celebrating with him.

I noticed on Saturday the funny differences between gift wrapping. Some have the thought process that anything worth getting must be worked for. So the box is wrapped like its being shipped by the USO to troops. Then the box is taped shut as well as the wrapping paper. And no, it won't be scotch tape. It will be more like packing tape. You know the kind you gotta cut with a razor blade. Then there is the tissue paper. The gift is wrapped all over again. With more tape and hell sometimes I expect to see a padlock or some sort of retina scan. Gee Whiz, people, calm down.

Inevitably, the person that needs to carefully open everything will get these gifts. These gift openers must moonlight as bomb technicians. Out come the scalpel and nothing can be ripped. Heck we may be able to use this again. My god, the tissue paper is 99 cents for a 100 sheets of the stuff, go wild.

Me personally, you are lucky to get a gift bag. 9 times out of 10 it is a gift card stuck in the card and I don't even have the strength to lick the envelope. You may get a paper cut or something and I am not going to risk personal injury for your birthday. I like you and everything, that is why you take the card and the $25 gift card and be happy.

Take it easy Thursday

Today I am grateful for PTO (Paid Time Off). I had a sore throat this morning and did not want to push it. I was able to not go to work, sleep in, cancel class, and hopefully not get sicker.

I am grateful for Evite. A great place to send out invitations. I have sent out mine for my Stand-Up premier. If you did not get an invite and would like one, let me know.

I am again grateful for Nicole. She is my everything and I am so proud of her. Our dog had a seizure today and to watch her comfort the dog while she was going through it... Amazing.

Found out today that Anna Nicole's baby's daddy is Larry Birkhead. Damn, I had Mr. Roper in the pool. I know he was a long shot, but I knew she likes the older men. Watching Larry Birkhead clips on TV makes me long for the days of Kato Kaelin. Now that man knew how to milk his 15 minutes of fame.

Wacky Wednesday

Today I am grateful for the upcoming sleep that I will be getting. A late night and an early morning aren't good combos. Good combos are the pizza filled pretzel ones.

I am grateful for technology. Today I saw my daughter Sarah Elizabeth again. She is 3lb. 4oz. and has a big foot (just like momma). I heard her heartbeat which makes my spirit soar.

I am grateful for good karma. I found out today that our friends Andy and Jennifer had their twins last week. Henry and Eleanor were over 5lbs. each. They have had multiple losses and deserve all the happiness and lack of sleep the two will bring.

I was watching American Idol tonight and noticed Sanjaya was not voted off again. He is the Indian kid who has a lot of charm and not very much talent. All that I can figure is that I feel sorry for anyone calling for technical support for the two hours after American Idol as they all must be calling in and voting for Sanjaya.

Two For Tuesday

Today I am grateful for how full my life is. I have friends, family, a loving wife, a baby on the way, a good job, a good life.

I am grateful for good neighbors. We left the garage door open and our neighbors called to make sure we were okay. Very thoughtful.

I am amazed at the strength of the comedians I saw tonight. Not all were funny but to get up there and talk for 3 or 6 minutes in front of a room of strangers all at an attempt to make them laugh. Very curageous.

My first stand-up comedy night will be May 15th. Doors open at 8 and the 90 minute show starts at 8:30. A coupon for two free admissions is available here... http://www.crackerscomedy.com/open_mic_coupon_print.html. There is a two item minimum. Come on out and support brave souls trying to make people laugh.

The one thing I realized was is how amatuer comedy is ver similar to the first time I had sex. It was akward. I didn't know what I was doing. I kept saying the wrong things. I was sweaty and probably didn't look suave. It was over in about 3 to 6 minutes. And I was alone.

Just another Manic Monday

Wish it was Sunday. That's my fun day. I don't have to run day. Just another Manic Monday.

Bangles Rock.

Today I am grateful for my job. I receive calls all day for help resolving their problems. I am grateful that I am able to help, but mostly that I have come to a realization that they are not my problems. That realization has significantly reduced my stress level.

I am also grateful for the courtesy most people still show and that I try to show everyday. It's the little things like holding a door open, allowing someone to merge, and smiling at each other. If we all did little things for each other... Oh the big things we can accomplish.

Joyful anticipation of going to the comedy club tomorrow night. Not to perform, but to see others and sign up to realize a dream of mine for some time.

Did you ever notice car commercials talk about their used cars being a fraction of the cost of their new cars. Isn't everything a fraction. Whether it is 1/2 off or 5/4 the price (that would be more expensive for you non-math people). It's like saying there is a fraction of a chance the sun will rise tomorrow. Well duh.

Easy like Sunday morning

I am grateful today for my family. Being told by strangers how great my mom is when I already knew. Spending time with my two moms and enjoying an Easter lunch.

Why didn't Jesus put the stone back when he left the cave after rising from the dead.

He was born in a barn.

I am also grateful for my wife. The companionship she offers and how we can be together all day and enjoy it thoroughly. Enjoying her sense of humor.

Always commercial stated "Have a happy period." Guess what... If you are trying to get pregnant, the person that tells you to have a happy period can take a flying leap. (That is funny.)

The simplicity of SSH and Apache and appreciating how it just works on Linux. (That's for you, Craig)

First Blog

I am inspired by my friends Craig and Michelle. Knowing that remembering and cherishing the good things are what makes you a good person and life is too short to let the bad things change us.

I am frightened of the future because it may hurt, but am hopeful as it can bring so much joy.

I am honored that I can spend my life with my best friend Nicole and am joyed at her flexing her independence in joining Michelle at the Womyn's Camp over Mother's Day weekend.

Check out my favorites list. It will be added to and a different topic monthly.

More to come... some of it will be funny too.